i am thinking of tomorrow being my last day of the year and i feel sad for the up coming year i feel that I am wanting to end the year but I can’t because i can’t end the way i feel about the job girlfriend and the past as i go through this holiday season i am just without words i feel that I have said everything i can to express the way i feel and i am just working to not focus on something else maybe that is the best i can do if so that is when I am feeling suicidal